Thoughts Before a Recap

Our trip to Maine was wonderful. Really, really wonderful.

We enjoyed each and every second that we were there.

Plenty of napping, sight-seeing, and shopping.

I have been going to Maine since I was young. I know a lot about the state and I fell in deep love with it within the first few years of visiting. I have a deep appreciation for nature and love to spend my time outdoors. Maine is the perfect state for that. You can be on the beach, smelling the salt of the sea; then turn around and see mountains with the sweet smell of balsam fir pine trees. Blueberries and lobsters. L.L. Bean and Cadillac Mountain. I’ve conquered it all in my years.

Mosquito's are the state bird. That’s a joke. Sorta.

I’ve sailed the bays and the seas, eaten blueberry everything, seen a 1,700 lb. chocolate moose, watched seals sunbathe in the open seas, listened to lighthouses warn ships of the rocky coastline, watched lobster boats pull their traps and keep only the most perfect lobsters; read books about lighthouse keepers and their families, taken in the much slower and steadier pace of life, talked with God, cried my eyes out to rejuvenate my spirit while I sat on a rock that my Dad calls his own and thought about the tragedies and graces of this life; I’ve unknowingly modeled every aspect of my life, to try to equate it to the way I feel when there, and failed miserably; I’ve found buoys, starfish, sand dollars, and shells that allow me to hear the ocean when I need it most, rocks, drift wood, beach glass, and so many other small morsels that are scattered about my house; I’ve realized my dreams, and my potential; I’ve dreamed of preserving our great planet, educating those who are ignorant, pleasing my God and growing my family; I’ve felt my emotions and senses run wild; I’ve learned that peace and true harmony are possible in this broken world that we live in; I realize that God has a plan for my life. I don’t know exactly what that is yet, but I know that it will happen here. Why? What is there that I need to do to please my God? I’ve been thinking, and waiting to find out for 13 years; since I went there for the very first time.

We are considering moving there. Considering leaving behind a company that takes care of us, but kills my husband at the same time. We may be shipping off to Raleigh soon. I just don’t know. We’re in limbo right now.

The move to Maine is, of course, ideal. There is a lot of research to be done. A lot of life changing decisions to be made. Only time will tell. God has been pulling me there for 13 years. I try to tell myself that it’s just something in the air, but I can’t convince myself of that.
Our lives…..

They are up in the air, in God’s hands.

And that’s how I like it. In God’s hands.

More to come. With Pictures.